Well.... guess what?

[Jezebelle]

I do believe I am with child :e

Mind you.... this wasn't entirely expected nor unexpected...and since I will not be telling anyone I know IRL anytime soon, you all may becoming my new secret friends [post85]

*prays noone she knows secretly cyberstalks her*

Husband and I for a few years now had decided that we would start trying in August 2006 so that the delivery would coincide with my summer break. But then July 2006 came around and I started freaking out. I wanted our kitchen redone, I had put on weight and frankly - I was just having too much fun going out with our friends. You see, in my off time, I play the part of happy barfly :e

However, I'll be 33 in less than a few weeks. I am also in a happy stable marriage with a good career, in good standing financially, and we own a home. Oh and of course - I do want kids :)

I've also been off the pill for 4 months and taking pre natal vitamins.

Then we realized now wouldn't be a good time to take out some of the amazing equity we've gotten in the house we bought just one year ago (yay intown houses!) because of interest rates going up. So, we couldn't redo our kitchen just yet. I've been on Weight Watchers for about 4 weeks now and have lost just over 5 lbs and have really enjoyed being on it.

But then.... one night.... we're all lovey dovey and having one hell of a love fest session and we just go for it. We have unprotected sex. A lot of it. Then we keep going at it for the next few days...... because we learn that I was actually ovulating.

That was 2 weeks ago and I should have gotten my period on Tuesday. I did not. And yes, my period is still like clockwork even though I'm not on the pill.

So, I take three, yes THREE pregnancy tests and they are pretty inconclusive. The first one I took was First Response and although the initial readout showed not pregnant, after about 15 minutes you could see a faint second line. It was very faint, but there it was! So, I take an EPT test.... same thing. This one is a plus if you're pregnant. Again - the first line is quite evident, but the cross line is incredibly faint. I took one again yesterday morning - same friggin thing!

The not knowing right now is quite frustrating. It was quite an underwhelmed moment for us. Instead of this great celebration, we just looked at eachother like - "maybe? I think we might be pregnant??" I called the OBGYN I met with a few weeks ago (I started interviewing, yes interviewing, OBGYNs in May and found one we both like) and got an appointment next Tuesday to get a blood test to find out for sure.

So... I don't know.

Frankly, I'm quite certain I'm pregnant. Still no period and no sign of period. Like I said before, my period is NEVER late. I'll take another test this weekend, but I'm quite certain the results will be similar: Faintly positive, but positive nonetheless.

Did you take any pregnancy tests that showed a very faint second line? Were you actually pregnant?

Should I start hanging out in here now? ;)

[Fray]

Oooh, more excitement!

Roll on Tuesday! [hugs]

[bear]

Exciting!!! Mine weren't faint but I never used one of the fancy tests that you could use that early.

I can completely understand your feeling frustrated! Hope Tuesday hurries up for you or that the weekend test is more solid!

[Jezebelle]

This is me the last 2 days: [YIKES]

[Rose Bud]

My first faint line is almost 3 and my 2nd is 6 months old. :)

With Nicholas (the 1st faint line) I used a first response early detection test, 2 of them actually, and the lines were not dark on either of them. And like I said, that "faint line" will be 3 on the 26th.

With Benjamin (the 2nd faint line) I'd used a digital test first, which was positive. But I wanted a test to keep (yeah yeah, gross to keep a peed on stick but whatever), so I got an EPT +/- test, and the line was really faint. The "faint line" turned six months old this past Monday. :D

[Jezebelle]

*jumps up and down*

REALLY???!

Finally! Some sort of confirmation that I am indeed pregnant!!!!

I mean, if that second line is treated with something to detect pregnancy hormones, then it detected something right?!

Thanks so friggin much for sharing [hugs]

[Rose Bud]

Yep, the line doesn't darken/lighten because of "how" pregnant you are, it really depends on how much dye is in/on the test. It could just be the tests you have are from a lot that just doesn't have much dye for the result line.

If you don't want the whole "Is that a line or not?" problem, try the digital test. The answer from those is pretty obvious. ;)

[chickentart]

OK, a positive is a positive sweetheart.

You only produce that HcG hormone when you are pregnant. False negatives you can get sometimes... false positives are almost impossible.


So congratulations honey! You are (very most likely probably almost positively) pregnant!

[katz]

weeee! congrats!

and like chicken says, a positive is a positive!

2 tests from the same lot (2 pack test). Jan 2 was my first test and freakout and Jan 10 was my was I hallucinating last week freakout.
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[Rose Bud]

From www.peeonastick.com

8. The positive line is really faint. Is this okay? An HPT tells you exactly one thing: your urine either has detectable pregnancy hormone in it, or it doesn't. The darkness or lightness of a line doesn't mean much. Generally speaking, a very light line can mean there is a small amount of hCG in your urine, and a very dark line can mean there is a larger amount of hCG in your urine. This is why you may get a faint positive at 10 DPO but a darker positive at 18 DPO. However, this is not always true. Tests are all different, and even tests in the same box may differ in sensitivity. Comparing light/dark lines will just drive you nuts. If you see a line in the "results" window, you're preg!



9. I took another test and the line is lighter. Does this mean anything? Should it get darker? Not necessarily. In general, the positive line will be darker when a greater amount of hCG is present in the urine, but not always. Some tests contain more or less dye (meaning there is just more or less color to "stick" to your hCG.) Some tests are more or less sensitive-- even 2 tests in the same box can be different. Also, your urine may have more or less hCG in it depending on what you ate or drank, or how long it's been since you last peed. Food itself does not cause false results, but can affect how much urine you have and how dilute it is. Eating salty chips and drinking caffeine all day will result in more concentrated pee, whereas gorging on watermelon and ginger ale will result in lots of very dilute pee. But an HPT is not meant to tell you "how" pregnant you are. It only tells you if you are pregnant or not. As long as there is a line in the results window, you are pregnant.

[Antigone]

Congratulations!

PS It's time to splurge on the digital test if you want to be sure! ;)

[half1113]

I used the digital test and it said Pregnant in less then 10 seconds.

[Ryoko!]

congrats!!!
Commence with the puking!!!
;)

[Jezebelle]

Thanks so much guys!! [vibe]

I still can't really believe it.... nothing feels too different, though. I have these strange cramps just below my rib cage, but I think I'm over thinking things, actually.

I am so thankful for this thread as you are the only people that know!

Yeah.... when does morning sickness start? I keep getting waves of nausea and I have to take a really deep breath, but again - I don't know how much is real and how much is psychosomatic, ya know?

[bear]

It hit me at about 5 weeks pregnant both times. Some escape it though. May you be a lucky one!

Congrats lady!!! :)

[BlueMoonSiren]

I'm so glad you're so happy. It's fantastic to see.

[katz]

strange cramps could be bloating :) i had the bloat pretty bad for the first 8 weeks.

for the MS i can't tell ya, i was a lucky one that escaped it. I did have smell aversions that, that made me turn a bit green and send me running but i was never actually queasy from it or sick. i just knew that i couldn't smell bbq at a certain restaurant, playdoh or scrambled eggs (could eat them, just not smell them cooking). i've avoided them all since, so i dunno if they'd still bother me.

but weeee! so cool! happy for you :)

[chickentart]

Honestly, snacks are key. I started getting the morning sickness at about 5 weeks as well. 10.5 and still going strong! Barfed for the first time yesterday actually. I'd just been feeling bad up until then, but yesterday I...yeah.

Welcome to the club.

[Bella]

Congrats, Miss Jezebelle!!!

[Jezebelle]

Another pregnancy test.... same result, though more visable!

And still... no period :)

[Kari]

^ I am apt to agree with the other ladies. If there is any dye in that test that comes up in the second window, you are 99.9% FOR SHO preggers.

I am really happy for you, sweetie. I know how badly you wanted this and I wish you all the best!

[half1113]

The only time I battle nausea was the first few days after my home pregnancy test. Mine was my horrible nerves and IBS. After I became ok with my pregnancy and quit freaking I was fine. I never had morning sickness. I'm at 30 weeks and I've only had one problem and that was a funky blood test but we are all fine. I too over analyze every thing. I never 'felt pregnant' until the past three weeks when she started kicking up a storm.

Congratulations :)

[Fray]

It's tuesday!!!

[FaerieDreamer]

A faint line is still a line. :)

Congatulations!!

[Jezebelle]

According to the doctor, I am pregnant! They did an additional test today that confirmed it :e

I just told my mom too and she's so excited! I told my one sister about it (she kept asking), which meant I had to tell my mom. And now I'm waiting for my other sister to call so I can tell her and then its [post85] for at least a few more weeks. Right now my rule is: only the women in my family will know ;)

Actually - when did a lot of you start telling people? I'm not sure when to say! I think I'll wait longer to tell friends in case I lose the baby (I really won't want lots of sympathy) but when do I tell family?

[St. Theresa]

Congrats!

Tell 'em whenever you want. I had no fear, and spouted about it at about 4-5 weeks. That one just started high school today. :)

And you don't HAVE to be sick. Not a requirement. ;)

[courey]

Yesss! Congrats, girl! :)

[bear]

Yay!!! :)

I told my family right after I found out. Didn't share it with the rest of the world until I hit my 2nd trimester.

I am so happy for you!

[half1113]

My mom showed up right after I took the test. I was crying so I told her. I then called the company mom at work and told her while bawling. Then my mom called the plant to have my husband call me and I told him while bawling. I then called my sister, my friend, and my mother-in-law. I tried to call in sick the next day because I was bawling but I came in. The only other person at work who knew was my boss, and I made the company mom call her tell her. I kept it quiet for a while but it started slipping and finally I admitted it.

My sister called her sister-in-laws and my cousins and they all cried from joy.

It took me about a week to accept it. We weren't trying so it was a gigantic shock. I wasn't even sure if I wanted kids. Now I'm happy with it. I'm actually getting excited, while still freaking out.

Congratulations!

[Jezebelle]

So, your tears were tears of shock then? Wow - thats some story! Everyone's crying!!! I'm glad you're excited, but I know what you mean. I'm freaking out (I did plan this but didn't figure we'd get pregnant so quickly), but I am very excited :)

[half1113]

So, your tears were tears of shock then? Wow - thats some story! Everyone's crying!!! I'm glad you're excited, but I know what you mean. I'm freaking out (I did plan this but didn't figure we'd get pregnant so quickly), but I am very excited :)

Yes they were shock and panic tears. I'm 30 and everyone else have already had their children. I'm also way younger then my sister and cousins. I think that's why they were all excited and crying.

[Fray]

Yay for being definitely pregnant! [post28]

[Jezebelle]

Well guys.....

its been a pretty bad weekend.

I'm afraid I've miscarried [blue]

I would be shocked if I'm wrong, but I'll find out for sure tomorrow morning.

It all started yesterday when I got some minor bleeding. Everything says thats not uncommon so as concerned as I was, I tried to put it out of my mind. Of course, I called my doctor who said to come in first thing Monday morning. But the bleeding has continued and went from old brown blood, to fresh red blood and severe cramping. About an hour ago, I went to the bathroom and a sizable clot came out of me. If that isn't a miscarriage......

So, yeah.

Chris and I have been pretty upset. We cried for a few hours about 5am last night because I was in such pain and we both knew the truth.

I'm not in as much pain as I was yesterday or last night so I think the worst is past.

I shouldn't be surprised, though. Its not uncommon for a woman to miscarry so early in their pregnancy. I was only 4 weeks along! Dozens of things could have happened to my little seed that caused it to move on. It could have had all sorts of problems.

I just told my family and my boss on Friday. Assuming I did miscarry as I suspect, I think I'll take all of tomorrow off. Maybe not. I don't know. I don't hurt as much but its all so much to process. I mean - what does this do to my ovulation? When do we try again? What if I have a lot of miscarriages? Do we wait a few months? A year? I had an abortion when I was 18 - can I no longer carry a child because of that? Or was it just some small incident that resulted in me losing our seed?

So, yeah. Like naws said in her thread a few years ago (I've been reading old threads on bleeding for the last 24 hours), time to go listen to some Tori and hear her in a new way.

[Fray]

Oh honey. I'm so sorry. :(

[courey]

:/

I'm sorry, girl. Miscarriage is an awful, heartbreaking thing to go through. Take some time to grieve and take care of yourself emotionally, by all means. Keep in mind that, as you've said, it's actually kind of common to miscarry early on, and it wasn't anything you could have prevented. Give your body a few months to recover, and then get back in the game when you feel ready to. Keep taking your vitamins! :)

[bear]

^ Exactly. I am so incredibly sorry. Definitely a difficult thing to deal with no matter how common it might be. Take care of yourself, take time to grieve and try to keep your spirits up.

[half1113]

I'm so sorry. Just keep taking care of yourself and you'll be knocked up again in no time.

[Kari]

Oh sweetie. :( I'm so terribly sorry. Hang in there, and please don't hesitate to send a PM if you need to talk.

[Jezebelle]

Well, its official.... but I knew it anyway. On some level, I had told myself I was actually pregnant with quadruplets and had miscarried 2! Desperate, huh? But tests now show I'm not pregnant.

So.... many drinks for me this weekend! I'm gonna tie one on tonight too, though just a little. My birthday is Thursday. I can also go ahead and finish painting the bathroom and staining my outside furniture. This really was a surprise and we really may not have been as ready as we should have been.

At least I heard the Take Me With you link! ;)

Anyway, thanks for all your kind thoughts. It really does mean a lot to me. You guys are really the only ones that know details. Seems strange how some avatars can be comforting. You're all my secret friends and its nice to have somewhere to go to let all the truth out without worrying about the look of pity on someone's face.

We'll be fine, I'm sure of it. I know enough about development and genetics to practically understand that this just wasn't the time. In some ways I am thankful that it happened - I'd rather miscarry early than have a difficult pregnancy and a potentially very delayed child. I like it when nature knows better than me and does whats best.

So practically - I'm fine. I'm at work and about to work with a very autistic echolalic child. Then I'll leave early and have a tall glass of wine. Maybe take a long run later on today..... eeer I guess I should do that before the wine, huh?! Maybe I'll run tomorrow. I don't know. But the next 7 days will be about escape.

Thanks again guys - I really appreciate it [post28]

[Antigone]

*hugs*

I would suggest charting (if you aren't already) in order to see when ovulation starts up again. From watching my friends' experiences, I think sometimes it can happen right away.

You have my best wishes.

[limagre]

I'm sorry to hear that. I hope you're well.

[Bella]

I'm sorry to hear this, but it seems like you have a healthy, positive outlook on things and realize that your body's doing what's best for it at this time. I wish you guys lots of luck in the future.

[Autumn]

Arrggghhh. I read all this yesterday, and I'm heartbroken for you.

Take care of yourself! You'll be a mommy before you know it.

[chickentart]

I'm so sorry to hear this. I don't know if I can add to what's been said but I hope you can grieve through this and decide that you still want to keep trying. Miscarriage happens so often, to so many women, and then later, they're able to have happy, healthy pregnancies afterwards. Tori is a good idea right now, for listening and for inspiration. Our thoughts are with you two. Take care.