Hopefully I'll be back here soon

[garoux]

We're going to start trying for another baby. I had a very early miscarriage in early September, and I have a couple of hormone issues that need to be addressed. I need to get my thyroid and progesterone levels checked. Right now my luteal phases are far too short to allow a successful pregnancy, and homeopathic methods of lengthening it aren't working. I'm hoping we'll get that worked out soon and then really start trying in December. I'm still breastfeeding Gwendolyn twice a day and will wean her only when she's ready, so I'm not in a super rush to get pregnant again. But soon, I hope....

[Jezebelle]

I also had a very early miscarriage in early September.

I don't know nearly as much as you do about my hormones - I'm still waiting to ovulate again.

I must admit - I've been pretty depressed about it all lately. Even typing this now brings tears to my eyes. I was so damn practical about it all last month all the while acknowledging the spector that was with me wherever I went. But now I feel more emotional about it all.

I realize I have no control over my body or what will happen next.

I'm hoping these tears are a sign of PMS and that I'll start my period soon. I just need to figure out where my body is lately so that I can start to move forward. I go back and forth between "I must let this go - I can't control it" to "lemme see if I'm ovulating"

I keep buying ovulation kits and don't use them.

Why do I do that?

Anyway - so, I guess I'm depressed. I just feel rather helpless.