crying for the death of my heart....

paper kitten · 02-13-2001, 04:04 PM

desperate....to have someone...anyone...tell me its going to be ok....just for a moment....'its alright this time i said...'....because i dont really think it is.......i cant seem to breathe properly.... and...valentines day is tommorow.... and i fell apart last night.... flashbacks that werent really flashbacks...because i was there all over again.....on scratchy blankets and hands that.... were just wrong.....wrongwrongwrong... and....why cant i just sleep til the weekend.... without...waking up screaming...just one sleepytime without a bad horrible awful no good very bad dream.... just....someone to tell me its alright...even though...i dont quite think it will be.... it never really is....

i wish i could breathe....

Marco · 02-13-2001, 04:06 PM

you can and you will breathe. try to overcome this ordeal, be strong.

02-13-2001, 04:15 PM

everything will be alright... but....somehow...it always feels like i a lie when i say that...itll be alright....how often is it really....

but somehow...

i believe that it will...
i truly do....

i made a wish for you this morning....

it has to be...

your words...it will be alright, on one night..far away from here...beautiful and grotesque and all the rest of that bug stuff...it will be okay...i love you, and i am sending you the prettiest of thoughts right now, ith rain drops and crystals and bubbles, and glitter and falling stars

breath in...breath out...breath in...breath out...i'm doing it with you...on the floor, with you

it's okay

Prisonberry · 02-13-2001, 04:19 PM

I know our path's haven't really crossed but I do wish to tell you I am thinking about you hoping and wishing for the birds to sing for you! You have so much to give the world and you give us here at the forumz so much! I just want you to know that and remember what you mean to all of us! Things will get better! They have to!
Cassie

Snow White · 02-13-2001, 04:41 PM

<font color=purple> I'm thinking about you..and sending you warm vibes...and..I hope things look up soon...they will..in time..."It will all find it's way in time"...but do remember to breath...and remember that there are always small moments of comforting solace...if you look.... even when things feel as if they are...never ever going to get better...but they will...they will...and you heart isn't dead...it is wonderfully alive...

Delicate Sun · 02-13-2001, 04:59 PM

That was beautiful, Xsnowwhitex.

I hope for the best to you and wish good days to come.
There will, be some.

mechanicalbride · 02-13-2001, 05:25 PM

i think ive gotten the gist of whats happened to you, and all i have to say is, it <i>will</i> be ok, not super, not ideal, but ok, like they said, just breathe, and although it feels like yesterday, think of tommorow was another whole step away..its not the anniversary of what happened, it the anniversary of your strength..you're not alone, and you'll get through this.

sleepy safe place · 02-13-2001, 05:32 PM

remember what i said before.... valentines is almost here.... but also it's almost over... think about how it will be over soon... and you can leave this panic behind... think about florida... and think about how it may come sooner than you think.... i love you... i send my sweetest thoughts always... you are locked in my heart... and you heart speaks to me... it glows and swells, it is far from dead.......

MerkurMan · 02-13-2001, 07:16 PM

I agree with what everyone else has said... the day will come, but it will leave just as quickly... a day can't last forever... I hope you feel better soon...

batboy.

angel hotel · 02-13-2001, 07:27 PM

i don't really know what to say.. i agree with what everyone else had said.. i'm thinking of you..

love
megan

Playboy Mummy · 02-13-2001, 07:32 PM

I'm here as much as I can be...you WILL be OK.

PrimpQueen2000 · 02-13-2001, 09:34 PM

You will get better sweetest of all the hungoverfaeries in all the world. I do not know what has happened to make you so upset, but believe me I'm living a nightmare too and I do not remember the last time I slept nicely. Everything wil be okay it will. I'm giving you a big soul hug. Do ya feel it? Anyway, please try to be happy.

~Taff.

On a rainy day such as this, HE still has time to peak out of the clouds to give me a hug.

i am a cat. · 02-13-2001, 10:13 PM

I'm so sorry that you are feeling this way. Please stay strong. I am most definitely thinking of you.

PrimpQueen2000 · 02-13-2001, 10:19 PM

Oh sweety. I hope its not what I'm thinking. If it is, I have been there, but I dont know what it is really, but I think I do. And it will be okay.

~Taff.

On a rainy day such as this, HE still has time to peak out of the clouds to give me a hug.

paper kitten · 02-14-2001, 12:43 AM

thankyou....everyone.....maybe....my heart doesnt need to die....if it died...i wouldnt be crying now.....from...just feeling so.....soft....and....warm....and maybe....someone would care if i cracked in too many places....thankyou...