desperate....to have someone...anyone...tell me its going to be ok....just for a moment....'its alright this time i said...'....because i dont really think it is.......i cant seem to breathe properly.... and...valentines day is tommorow.... and i fell apart last night.... flashbacks that werent really flashbacks...because i was there all over again.....on scratchy blankets and hands that.... were just wrong.....wrongwrongwrong... and....why cant i just sleep til the weekend.... without...waking up screaming...just one sleepytime without a bad horrible awful no good very bad dream.... just....someone to tell me its alright...even though...i dont quite think it will be.... it never really is....
i wish i could breathe.... | 
02-13-2001, 03:04 PM 
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